lala

2012-01-30T10:34:00.002+08:00

I am tired of being the second best.
I am tired of being an option.
I am just tired.

Don't treat me good only when you need me.
Don't treat me like a shit when you don't need me.

Made me feel so STUPID.
There's always a limit to everything.

2012-01-28T17:54:00.003+08:00

Oh gosh~ I feel disappointed. I shouldn't be feeling this way.
难道好心真的没好报吗？
你对他好，他会对你好吗？
这个世界真不公平！

Jealous. Yes! I AM JEALOUS!!

2012-01-20T04:19:00.003+08:00

我真的很不开心
我很想大哭一场
我真没用
我怎么那么弱

2012-01-20T00:35:00.003+08:00

HELLO!
AnGrY BoY Is BaCk!!!
The only time I think of you is when I am:
ANGRY
SAD

YES I AM BACK!
I AM SOMEONE WHO IS:
CAN'T CONTROL MY EMOTION
BAD TEMPER
STUBBORN
IRRESPONSIBLE
NO RESPECT
EVIL
SELFISH
ETC.
IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME,
PLEASE GET OUT OF MY LIFE.
Do you want to get out?
Oops!! You Can't!
Unless your owner close you down

first thing,
why things always happen when I don't want it to?
when my passion is burning, nothing come it.
now when passion is at the lowest point,
then kenna this... haiz~

second thing,
why am I so freaking pekchek nowadays?
what the hell is wrong with me?
everyday there will be some things that made me so angry
problem is definitely from me.

third thing,
keeping some things to myself is getting harder for me now
last time I CAN! but now I can't
I promise MYSELF not to said IT out this time.
not to anyone at all.
its killing me now but better than killing me later.

Start to lose interest in everything.
even my DREAM~
oh that's bad.
OH gosh!
even ending of my life came across my mind
how foolish of me.
*shake head*
life so boring
I need something to spice it UP!!

maybe you know maybe you don't.
it's better if you don't know.
coz there won't be worries for you.
but you of coz you dunno,
I wish I am like you
can delete away all the bad things and save all the good things
most importantly you have no heart=no feelings!
so envy of you!!!!!
My heart is having lots of injuries~
My positive cells all have become negative cells
OMG!

2011-11-13T05:47:00.003+08:00

Good Morning!
6 hrs of sleep still not enough for me!
but I decided to wake up
coz i don't wanna mess up my time.
Time Flies when you are having a good time.
Its sunday already.......
I wanna go back to Friday!
I thought I would nvr have so much fun
but end up I enjoyed myself there.
Its been a Long time since I chat play with them.
Its also been a Long time since I play cards game!
Murderer, cheat, UNO..............
I got so many unglam photo!!!!! OMG!!

when there is good times, there is bad times too...
I really don't know why you come here for.
you don't interact, you isolate yourself in your world,
thinking you are some big shot over there.
There are so many guys out there,
why let the girls do everything?
If you all think you pay $=very big,
hello! they paid the same price too!
NVM forget about those !@#$%^

I thought I have already put down everything.
I thought I have already gave up.
I thought I would not have any more feelings for you.
Its all thoughts from my mind, not from my heart.
after so long since we met, feelings came back.
Now I know what I thought were wrong,
but not entirely wrong.
somehow the feelings were different from the past.
I don't know how to explain it.
Mixed feelings......................
Maybe I just don't wanna screw things up.

2011-07-15T21:52:00.002+08:00

I feel so lousy.
studies cannot make it,
CCA cannot make it,
everything also cannot make it.
I am basically good for nothing.

It's been quite sometime since the camp is over.
seems like whatever you all learn in the camp,
have been thrown back to me.
you people really take things for granted!!!
treat you all better only,
you all start to climb over my head
you ppl really don't know where is the line.
I guessed I am not good enough to teach you guys
I have not done my job yet.
At time I feel that the juniors is better.
FAIL much!!
JIAO DAO WU FANG.
I think I can forget about gold unit.
Speechless

I don't like the feeling that u are giving me.
I am seriously tired.
I should have gave up.
But I am just hanging on.
You are the reason why~

2011-06-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

Your mood affects my mood

2011-06-18T23:03:00.003+08:00

Words that cannot be expressed out~
Hen bu shuang!
I don't like it
feel lost, lack of motivation, being so lazy
and becoz of this bloody knee,
It worsen my mood every single day!
What's this MERVIN?!
Must think positively!
yes It is a MUST!

2011-06-14T13:27:00.004+08:00

Good Morning! Oops it is afternoon now..
Had a great time yesterday,
although I didn't sing!
It's been so long since we get together and have fun.
If ytd could be longer, it will be awesome.

People say true friendS are hard to find
and I guess I am the lucky one.
I found few true friends.
Maybe one day, they might turn untrue
but at least now they are true.
I am grateful for that :)

MY KNEE!!!!!!!!
injured my knee for second time!
What the fish!
can i change my knee???
Feeling so lame now.

You made my day:)
Shock & Happy to see the msg!
THANK YOU

2011-05-25T02:10:00.002+08:00

Hello Halo Heelo Heloo!
Bored :/
So fast it's going to be end of May!!!
So happy!!!!!!!!!
Hope time past even faster than this
This means that i will be able to watch CLIF!
This means that i am completing my 2 modules!
This means that i left with 6 modules (If i rmb correctly)!
This means that i am leaving ITE!
This means that i might go to poly!
This means that i can apply for SPF!
This means that i can fulfill my dream!
This means that i will be leading a happier life!
WOOOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!
Oh! this also means that i can get my motorcar/cycle license!
44 more days to changing of PHONE!
37 more days to atc/stc!
23 more days to holiday!
7 more days to CLIF!

I need the remote control for my life!
I WANT TO FAST FORWARD IT!

How long would it take for my knee to heal?!
I want play sports!
I want to go for HRC/Kayaking course!
Knee ah knee~ please heal fast enough.. pls

Shall talk about happy things in this post :) :D
I'm so happy about this new batch of NCO!
They are quite proactive!
GOOD GOOD!
*of coz luh is Mervin train them de mah* MUAHAHA!!
but they lack of confidence and hardskills~
*Aiyo Mervin! how come liddat?!* :((
shall plan for intensive training for them during june holi
this batch of ppl can be push.
Let's aim for GOLD!
We can do it!

went for shooting competition with some sec 2s
Had a crazy time with them, crazy as in fun type
guess this is their first time seeing the crazy side of me.
some of the sec 2 can be push too!
How am i going to help the sec2?!?!
How I wish I have my squad mate to go for CI course.

Talking about CI course,
that day i was searching for things and i saw the letters/notes,
that D'10 charlie wrote for each other.
Miss those time!
I want to go for another residential course with them again!

I also want to have Chalet/Camps with my squadmate (PHSS NPCC)!
If i had a chance, i want to be a camper and have camp with them!
no matter the good or bad times we have in camps,
i will always rmb them and i will miss them!

suddenly feeling sad~
Shall stop here for today~
misss misss misss misss misss misss misss misss....................................................................

2011-05-15T03:41:00.002+08:00

SWAY sway and sway~
I want to go play basketball!!
better not, so sway this year...
haiz~
something is missing in my life now.
what's that?
my life is lack of happiness

2011-04-27T15:58:00.002+08:00

Life so boring in the new environment~
As I looked through photos of the past,
memories came back.
Be it good or bad,
I miss those time~
Every time during lecture,
I tell my I should have go back to sec 5,
but whenever I see how the struggle,
I will tell myself HENG AH!

Time pass quickly too,
its going to be May soon....
I want to change my phone!!!

2011-03-25T01:16:00.005+08:00

I MISS YOU A LOT ;
especially in the night, when I am alone.
Wondering how are you now.
are you still feeling sick?
are you coughing while sleeping?
快点好起来!

I'm sorry I constantly want to talk to you,
I'm sorry if you don't wanna talk to me
as much as I wanna talk to you,
I'm sorry if I come off as annoying,
It just me missing you~

2011-03-22T01:51:00.002+08:00

Holidays~ lucky i have NPCC to keep me occupied.
camp was over not long ago.
thinking back i actually missed last year's camp
not only during camp, but pre camp and post camp too.
although there are unhappiness but i still miss them.
and thanks to that camp, i found a special friend!
Anw i dislike this year camp which i have planned.
I don't want to take NCO camp.

Next was NPAP. I am glad to have contingent 3 and dionis as my partner!
One devil and one angel, makes a good contingent.
sometime i wonder why ppl only listen after being scolded
they will always do well after scoldings~ WEIRD.
NPAP was tiring and somehow I pity the cadets MUAHAHA!!

You makes me feel happier :D

2011-02-27T21:56:00.000+08:00

OMG IT'S BACK AGAIN!!!!

2011-02-26T00:21:00.003+08:00

I am HAPPY today!
finally i have a happy friday!
friday used to be sucky but not for this friday!
Although it's short, but it's stupendous!!

2011-02-13T18:20:00.002+08:00

Boring lesson every week with bunch of asshole
hope this 2 yrs pass fast!
Some happy stuff this week :D
After this Friday Training,
i realise that this year sec3 cadets,
have a lot of potential and is way much better than sec4.
I am glad that i choose them.
But i believe they can do much better!

2011-02-07T02:34:00.010+08:00

Seriously, It's not a good year for me. I fucking hate this year! Why? tell me why! Its only the start of the year, and i have already teared for few time. What's wrong?!! life seems boring~ even the burning passion in me are fading away. I am tired, i just want to be alone. Just me. I am speechless when I heard about it. I am speechless when I saw it. I am Extremely Speechless when I feel it.

2011-02-03T03:30:00.002+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year!
If only I am granted with 3 wishes
I want Happiness!
I want $$$!
I want YOU!
I have mixed Feeling,
I feel confused and lost.

2011-01-30T00:11:00.003+08:00

Let's forget about those unhappy things~
Let's talk about something which make someone happy:)
A when to sch, never expecting to see B,
When A reached sch, A saw B!
A was soo happy that A lost what A want to say. LOL!
I didn't know A would be so happy.
I didn't really see them talk.
But I think A should have talk more to B!
Was B happy to see A?
I didn't notice it.
Hope they will meet each other again Soon:)

2011-01-14T23:27:00.002+08:00

it's sucks to see them doing their jobs. they are slow and dragggy! i thought today is the first day of training so i decided to close one of my eye. However the closed eye can foresee the problems that is going to happen next week. i feel so lousy now. maybe i am not fit to be a CI. i really dunno how to deliver the msg to them. they will step over your head if you r too nice to them and they will be very unhappy if you scold them. what to do?!!

2010-12-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

Trying very hard,
but it doesn't help at all.
It will suddenly come across my mind.
and I will Stuck at there!!!
It actually came across my mind,
when I am doing drills!
Can you believe it?!
Thinking back, I can't believe it...
LOL!!

2010-12-11T16:20:00.002+08:00

I love Charlie D'10!!!!

Before I went for CIBTC, i felt very sian because there isn't any friend going with me. At first i did thought of going Out Of Course(OOC). But at the end of first day, the feeling change totally! My group CHARLIE was not what i thought of. all of them are so fun to be with. normally when i go for camp, even on the third day we dun talk much. But charlie was diff, half day past and we were already so noisy. Alpha bravo and delta are so quiet. HEHE! keep talking about Charlie but not forgetting our instructor. it was totally diff. during uniform collection, all of them got the "i want you dead" face. they were so fun to be with. my instructors were the kindest of all the other instructors. they dun scold, they dun shout as long as u obey their instruction. Anw i shall end here and continue the next time :)

2010-11-28T00:28:00.002+08:00

h|p@9n0h6u!22!W

2010-11-23T19:53:00.003+08:00

You can turn to
ME! Me! ME!
Nobody are born to be useless.
You are not useless,
just that you are still unclear of the situation.

2010-11-23T13:58:00.005+08:00

Shucks! Shucks! Shucks!
I took the wrong steps,
Made wrong decision!

REGRETTED!
REGRETTED!
REGRETTED!
REGRETTED!
REGRETTED!
REGRETTED!

2010-11-23T04:40:00.001+08:00

Prom Night was Great!
Although kenna sabo but still have Fun!
movie after that was also good too.
But tonight can be even better If....

"Its better to try and fail, than you never try at all"
This quote is right,
but the feeling of failing,
真的很不爽！
I also really dunno how i feel now >_<
Hope everything will be as per normal

2010-11-08T04:07:00.003+08:00

79^th Batch Cadet Inspectors’ Basic Training Course!!
Here I come! HAHA!!
I think i am the only one going for this course.
so sad right? But its okay!
Oh! I Miss Camp!!!
It's been so long since I go for camp!
Best memory for last camp was CAMPFIRE!!!
After countless tries,

Campfire's burning (2x)
Draw nearer (2x)
In the glooming (2x)

Come sing and be merry

Campfire's burning now (4x)
Burning now [ Burn Burn Burn ] (2x)

Campfire's burning in the dark dark night
Oh Woo ye yippee yippee ye

2010-11-05T03:01:00.002+08:00

For the past few minutes,
I have been typing and pressing backspace.
[---------------BLANK---------------]

2010-10-30T23:08:00.003+08:00

Bored Ah~~~~~
Can someone invent a remote control for our life?
so that we can fast forward,
go back to past,
or even pause it!
record the happy moments,
Delete the sad moments,
Oh my~
if that's the case,
we will turn into robot
HAHA!

2010-10-21T00:57:00.002+08:00

When I saw______,
When I heard____,
When I smell_____,
When I feel______,
I AM SO DAMN HAPPY!!

BUTTT

When I heard_____,
When I know_____,
When I don't know___,
When I feel______,
I am so damn SAD~~~

2010-10-17T05:00:00.002+08:00

人与人之间的感情是很脆弱的。
不敢认识多久的朋友，
只要一点小误会，
就会很容易的变成仇人。
或者，太久没有沟通，
感觉就会变得很陌生。

2010-10-12T01:24:00.002+08:00

你让我觉得我是个大坏蛋！
你让我觉得这都是我的错！
我真的非常不爽！
你都不知道来龙去脉，
就判我死刑。
但我也不怪你，
如果你觉得我是这样的人，
就算了吧。
把我当作是坏人吧。

Haiz.........
maybe that's my fault
maybe i should apologize
maybe i should have handle it better
maybe if it wasn't me,
she would be better
maybe i am not as generous as what u think

But i know that i can be very good when u dun provoke me
i also can be very mean, once u provoke me!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-10-07T23:02:00.001+08:00

Vous me manquez beaucoup en ce moment.
Je tiens à vous dire, mais je n'ai pas le courage de vous le dire!
je n'ai besoin que COURAGE!

2010-09-30T21:42:00.001+08:00

I FEEL LIKE,

If I don’t put my foot forward and talk to you first,
ask you to hang out first,
check to see how you’re doing,
that you won’t.
I feel like if I don’t keep our friendship alive,
you’ll just let it die.
I feel like not trying because you won’t,
but I don’t want to lose you.

2010-09-27T18:30:00.002+08:00

What the Fuck is this?
Why am I so impulsive?
Why am I always the one?
There must be a problem with me.

You are right, I am wrong
You should have give me a punch!
Or you dare not?
So that's your friend.
shit la, I am so scared now.
I cannot touch MMDS's friend.

2010-09-23T22:18:00.000+08:00

One Word
"MISS"

2010-09-11T22:27:00.003+08:00

WATER!
OH MY~
I'M SCARED of YOU~

I got peace by the river,
I got joy overflowing,
I got life everlasting,
in my soul!

YES! YES! YES!
Finally!
Now I need you!
How good it will be,
If you appear now!
HAHAHAHA!!!!

2010-09-04T18:39:00.003+08:00

I am Tired~
How should I plan my life??

Nursery-->kindergarten-->Primary school-->Secondary school
[sec 4 N.A]-->ITE-->Polytechnic [sign bond with SPF]-->Serve NS [SPF]-->Complete Bond [4 years]-->?????

OR

Nursery-->kindergarten-->Primary school-->Secondary school
[sec 4 N.A]-->Secondary 5-->Polytechnic [sign bond with SPF]-->Serve NS [SPF]-->Complete Bond [4 years]-->?????

2010-09-01T22:38:00.002+08:00

It's been so long since i went back to NCPS.
I really miss those time,
where you go to sch, just to play play and play.
I miss the bell "Ringgggggggg!"
I miss my friends and wonder how are they now.
I miss the food,
lucky that stall is still there and i am able to taste it again!
Not to forget, the teachers.
still rmb how we poke fun of the teachers, giving them names etc.
Most of the teachers have left NCPS.
Primary school and Secondary school are totally different.
But the teachers are the same.
They do what ever they can to help us.
Thank You Teachers!
Happy Teachers' Day

The feeling is so Weird now.
Am I thinking too much?
I am perplex.

2010-08-28T21:33:00.002+08:00

What is this?
what are you thinking?
WTF! WTF! WTF!
Cannot take it!!
You are useless!
Haven't you learn your lesson?
真受不了!
很想把东西统统说出来!

"difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson
and then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a
lesson"

2010-08-16T01:11:00.004+08:00

Confused!
left or right?
some say left,
some say right.
so where should I go?

It was an awesome week!
I had fun! woohoo~
At the same time I STUDIED too!
spending Saturday and Sunday at home,
revising my physics and chemistry!!
its been so long,
since I sat down and revise my work on weekend.
20+ More Days~

Just realized that i am actually sick and tired of it.
I am starting to hate it!
I just feel like giving up :(
it is getting lousy each year~
i can't do anything! 真没用!

Mr chao found something interesting~
which he finds it 不可思议!
one day he was in the supermarket.
He bought coca cola and from that day onwards,
he only drink coca cola.
I tried to persuade him to drink other beverage,
but he insist on drinking coca cola.
until one fine day when coca cola is out of stock,
he tried sprite etc.
and he feels that other beverage also taste good~
Its not that coca cola is not nice,
but if coca cola is out of stock,
he just have to change his choice.

2010-08-01T21:52:00.003+08:00

Hey! I am back!
This year NDP song not nice.
I realize that the older the song, the nicer they are!
oh! I Love to see those man in BLUE & BLACK in action!
After yesterday,
my desire to become a policeman have increased!
I am joining those man SOON!

2010-08-01T19:27:00.002+08:00

时间过得真快，一转眼，一个月又过去了。
八月了，多三十六天就考试了。
但是我怎么一点也不紧张啊？
还好现在每个下午都需要留下来，
比我温习功课。
好啦，不说了，继续做功课了。

怎么最近都会想起 __ ？
尤其是今天。
这种感觉，还真恐怖！

2010-07-25T00:18:00.003+08:00

What a Wonderful Week~
But surely not next week!
Cannot believe that I Stay back!
but it was good~

What you say,
make sure you do it.
Now u know how diff it is?
now its your turn to suffer!
good luck !
It's always easier to be said then done~

Here it go again~
I got to be more Busy~
study study and study!

Come on, they got a life too.
Spare a thought for them.
stop complaining like nobody business.
you also nvr do work, u expect them to do?

2010-07-19T02:34:00.002+08:00

A tiring week have just passed.
Real tired!
Can't believe I passed my SBQ!
HAHAHA!

Shall wait and see,
don't feel like taking risk anymore~

2010-07-12T23:05:00.002+08:00

HEY! Passed(it really just a pass) all except Humanities.
Thought will fail Amath but passed!
thought will fail Chem but passed!
thought ENGLISH WILL FAIL but PASSED!

走着走着，结果走失了路。
想要走出去，但是没有指南针和最新的地图。
就算有这些工具，但不会用，也没有用啊。
真是个大笨蛋，笨死了。
他绝续的走下去，就像一只无头苍蝇一样。
他一直对自己说他会走出这个森林，但走了那么久也没走出来。
原来他一直都在骗自己，安慰自己。
他心里不知道有多害怕，多向有人能出现在他面前，来帮他。
但是他又不要帮自己，别人又怎样帮他呢？

2010-07-09T00:37:00.002+08:00

Somehow,
I hate to be here.
I want to be in a LaLaLand,
but I wonder how's life at LaLaLand.

2010-07-03T11:04:00.002+08:00

One word "Shuang"
Running in the rain,
Stepping into puddles of water.
Getting yourself wet,
just to get to sch in time,
When you don't have to.
Sound silly isn't it?
But I LOVE IT.

From first day,
problems have been given by you all,
But as day goes by,
improvement have been made.
I am really Happy with it.
From Skipping training to coming in PT kit with ankle socks,
to come in PT kit with longer socks,
to coming in FULL-U.
Hope I have give you all the knowledge,
Sorry if I have not.
Hope you all do a better job than I do

2010-06-20T05:34:00.004+08:00

How human react,
is not by what they hear,
is by what they see.

when you say you believe it,
you don't really believe it,
unless you see it.

Open your eyes,
see it for yourself.

2010-06-18T15:49:00.004+08:00

There is boy,
he went to do his PYA project.
after he had done,
he went back to SKNPC.
Commanding Officer (CO) asked 'Who would like to join SPF in future?',
this boy raised up his hand.

CO: why do you want to be a policeman?
Boy: cause I have the passion.
CO: what passion?
Boy: passion to serve.
CO: serve What?
Boy: Singapore.
CO: Then why not the Army?
Boy: ...... (hmmm~ no idea too)*

Why I want to be a Policeman?
This boy here,
is thinking very hard after he have left SKNPC on 18-06-2010.

Thinking to himself**
Q: why I want to be Policeman?
A: Becoz I want to serve singapore. I have the passion for it.
Having contribution to the society will made me feel contented.

Q:why not be a soldier? you also can serve Singapore.
A: I don't have that much of passion being a soldier.
I just want to be a Policeman to help my community
to be better and a safer place to live in.

Q:Is getting the reason Why i want to be a Policeman important?
A: reason is important but not that important. passion is
more important. passion is what makes me move on
not reason. if i have a Particular reason, after i archive
what i want, then there isn't any thing to hold me back.

Anyone with answer or qn? go to TALKS

2010-06-12T00:38:00.002+08:00

Enough!
Really Enough!
I am tired!
I am really tired!
I am really very tired!
GO AWAY!
SHOOOOOO!
LEAVE ME!
SIAM SIAM SIAM!

2010-06-07T23:01:00.003+08:00

Holiday isn't boring anymore.
love this holiday.

Short but meaningful,
How I wish it could be longer.
Appreciate it a lot.
Thank you~

Coursework Camp was fun,
Although it was boring.
At times, it reminds me of diff things.
Most importantly,
I manage to complete it!
Thank you Teachers.

2010-05-25T21:38:00.003+08:00

Oh my god~
That stupid man's life is so boring.
How I wish I could help him,
but I have no idea how to help.
All I know is he got a dream,
but he is reluctant to do his best.

You are dearth of it.
It's not the first time already.
Really got to do something with it.

Maybe what I thought,
wasn't what I feel.

2010-05-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

Woah! suddenly feel so confuse!
Which i have no idea what i am confuse for!
Eh i need a device which can tell me what i am thinking!
HAHA!
Happy but Unhappy
Excited but not Excited
Laugh but cannot Laugh
Cry but cannot Cry
CRAZY but not CRAZY !!
HAHA!
Confuse right? but not confuse..
okay!
Bye but Hi

2010-05-19T22:13:00.002+08:00

It's getting strange nowadays.
It seems as though they are strangers.
They are speaking lesser to one another.
I have no idea why.
Maybe at different point of time,
he needs different friend,
which might make him feel happier.
Anyway,
'If you are wondering, i still care~'

2010-05-18T01:00:00.002+08:00

It is just a 'useful' paper,
it can bring you to a better place.
Maybe he/she can climb faster than me,
with the help of paper.
I might be a small fish and he/she is a big fish.
Maybe i might lose out in term of salary/rank.
but i am not going to lose out
, in terms of experience and satisfaction.
I am weird, crazy, silly, stupid, brainless,naive
and maybe i am just a coward? (yes)
what do i really want?
i have a general goal, it is time for me to zoom in.

2010-05-01T21:32:00.005+08:00

it been a long week..
Used to have diff flavor of
sweets inside a jar. But now,
it seems to be an empty jar.

2010-04-25T12:56:00.003+08:00

Is he really happy now?
He just refuse to tell me the truth.
He is just bluffing to himself,
I find him so stupid.
He is wasting his time,
which he might have do something else.
I think this is a long game for him.
This is the longest game he had ever play before man.
If the game is nice to play,
It will be alright for him to play that long.
But if the game isn't fun,
I don't see a reason why he can play it so long.
Maybe he might consider to change the strategy of playing the game.

2010-04-24T06:32:00.007+08:00

Pressing backspace again and again,
Don't know what to say/write.
Something was trapped inside a maze,
Just want to get out of the maze.

You might be wondering,
If he could have more feeling.
Maybe he was cold blooded.
But all I can say is,
He do have it.

Always following behind,
how long can this fella follow the shadow?
when will this fella be able to look at the person?
why is the fella so stupid?
what is this fella thinking?

Lastly, ThankYou Silly again.

'It can means a lot or nothing when someone is keeping quiet'

2010-04-17T03:18:00.004+08:00

Starting the day with such a great weather.
The great weather gratified me.
The sense of happiness increased,
when the balloon were inflating.
But it start to degenerate,
After the break time.
it worsen when it comes to Amath lesson.
the feeling last till before the parade start.
Everything when on smoothly and end well too.
Had fun while on the way for a treat by officer(Thankyou)
Although I look like an idiot but Never mind.
hahahahaha
Thankyou silly for sending me home.
All in All, it was a happy event, a happy day and a tiring day too.

2010-04-14T20:29:00.002+08:00

ENOUGH!

够了！

2010-04-10T11:08:00.006+08:00

It's been so long,
long week/day.
busy for the whole week.

thinking it would be nice,
but it turn out not that nice.
but, still feeling honored

stepping onto lemon,
trying to use sugar to wash it away,
but no matter how much sugar was used,
it doesn't work.

looking at the gold bar,
wants to have a feel of it,
but bodyguard will never allow.
when the bodyguards are resting,
the man will sneak in,
enjoying himself there as much as possible.
but he was always forced to leave.

The man was asked to learn new technology,
so as to get into the room of gold bar easier & quicker.

That man's Kindness day.
he was Walking on air,
rolling in the aisles.
I am proud of him.

'Too much expectation leads to frustration'

2010-04-03T11:13:00.003+08:00

Even though i haven't gotten all my ingredient,
but i already can make desert le.. haha~

He is happy to see improvement.
Even though it is still not perfect.
He told me once,
that he will make them the best,
as nothing will be perfect.
Difference between a successful person and the others
is not a lack of strength,
neither the knowledge,
but rather a lack in will.

Really had a day off.
gonna be another busy week again.

'A Smile is the light in your window that tells others there is a caring, sharing person inside'

2010-03-30T22:48:00.004+08:00

New Week, New start
last week was tom yam,
this week i still don't know Yet,
as the ingredients were not ready yet.
Hope this week can have some deserts.
Muahaha~~~

Meet that person just now,
when i was having my dinner.
He said he was hoping a friend of his,
will cheer up & be Happy.
He left quite early as he was super tired,
by the work he have.
So i didn't stop him from leaving.
He said he will be getting his OFF DAY soon.

' If today was perfect there would be no need for tomorrow. '

2010-03-28T16:58:00.002+08:00

Tried, sad, happy, angry, crazy
All sorts of feeling were attached to him this week.
This week wasn't a good week for that child.
But no matter how bad it is,
I believe there will be something good.
Yesterday is a history,
Today is a present,
Tomorrow is MYSTERY.
Will that child be Looking forward for next week?
Shall asked him when i meet him again!

I had a bad dream today
find it funny when i woke up.
maybe too stress alr..haha

2010-03-26T23:55:00.003+08:00

I cannot believe he made it man!
Although he didn't made it 100%,
but at least he made it 80%.
So proud of him.
Happy faces most of the time.
Happiness over takes Unhappiness
Say goodbye to unhappiness.
Really got to say
Thank You to silly bubble***_****.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDAYAH!

2010-03-25T22:25:00.003+08:00

That person was sadden when words and faces flash through.
Was fine during and after a game,
but this does not lasts long.
Focus was disturbed.
keeping himself busy,
when possible.
The fire was always put out,
by the memories he had.
Just wondering why the memories was so powerful?
I think he can call it a wavy day for today.

2010-03-25T05:32:00.002+08:00

Morning!
Never want to say
keeping all inside
That's the consequences
But he just don't care.
He is weird.
He told me that he gave up,
but i don't think it is possible.
I got to tell him it's time for him to rest.

2010-03-23T20:35:00.002+08:00

Truth Truth Truth
GOD,
Far away, there is a boy who needs your help.
He needs your guidance.
He is out of idea.
He is stuck.
He was burnt out.
Struck his mind with something.

MERVIN, It's time for you to tone down.

2010-03-22T21:15:00.008+08:00

I haven't been updating my blog for quite a long time. Almost 3Mth have passed. Time is running out already. Last week, i have my annual camp. I can say that it was great but at the same time not that great too. What was the most memorable thing was the campfire. I am so proud of the NCOs that have helped out and myself. this is our first time having a REAL campfire and it was AWESOME! Next, i got to thanks all Officer for the help and advise and not to forget the NCOs which help out in the camp. The Sec3 were also having their NCO camp and i hope to see a better side of them after the camp. After we break camp, we have fun .. i was so tired that i lie flat on my bed and sleep till the next morning. The next day, went to catch a movie to relax myself and the following day, i started to do my homework. I don't know why i am so determine to complete my work this time.. haha. School started today and i am not looking forward to it haha.. Any way, for today, lesson was fine. After school had speech day rehearsal, it wasn't that tiring. our PDS got owned. But they could do better if they want to. But something just cannot get into their head so up to them. If that the training they will be having then i am fine with it. after that went to koufu and seated down there and chat, we were laughing all the way! haha... someone just cannot take it!!!! MUAHAHA~~~

2010-02-27T01:59:00.002+08:00

Today really sucks! I think Now Cadets Will Hate Me Like Shit! But what I got to Say is 'TOO BAD'. Scolding wasn't fun AT ALL but no choice. But If anyone of you disagree with the sentence, try to scold ppl as and when u like and u will know what i mean. It TOTALLY spoil yours and mine mood.

When i see all people in their correct attire, i will sure scold less.
when i see people having the positive attitude i will sure scold less.
I dun mind how good or bad u do it but i juz wan to see the effort!
if i see all 3 i can assure you all that 90% i would not scold people.
Most of the Friday were ruin by my cca, i wun say all coz some Friday i am happy about it

2010-02-08T22:35:00.002+08:00

Suddenly Feel like giving up Everything, but something is holding me back.
you all are busy, so are we.
i think again and i knew tt it is irresponsible of me to quit halfway.
HAIZ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2010-01-29T19:51:00.002+08:00

when sch early morning, lesson boring...
shall skip>>> after sch, change den wen for cca..
today the whole training gt prob...and it was my fault.
First, i made them wait again..it was my fault
second, instruction were not clear, it was my fault
third, cadets no energy, it was also my fault
fourth, cca end late, it was my fault
anw thanks Alan they all for helping to think of the design.
today, i am like lost. I forget my command, i forget the procedure.
i forget to greet officer. hope i can forget myself too.

Am I fit to be one?

2010-01-13T21:16:00.004+08:00

ya la.. my fault ...Happy?
yaya.. i got short term memory..
i got one fucking attitude with one fucking face. Happy?
Fuck you MERVIN, Fuck you!
SEE! bcoz of ur fucking attitude make untill liddat.
go die la Mervin....

2010-01-08T19:43:00.005+08:00

Do u think it was that easy?
I also want to do it, but what will happen next?
It is not that i don't want to say.
It is because even if i say, nothing will change.
But i agree with u that if i don't speak up,
den thing will be the same or even worst.
So, I am going to do what is right and not what is popular.
I not going to care if u hate me or not.
If i think that something is wrong, i will point it out.
If nothing going to change, I am prepare to scold anyone. (even if u are my friend)
Cause if i don't scold, the person who suffer would be me.
MERVIN! YOU MUST SPEAK UP! LET THEM HATE YOU IF THEY WANT!

2010-01-06T00:08:00.004+08:00

It seems like this yr quite unlucky uh?
but life still carry on. I was late for school today.
school was fine. The duration for lesson was like speedboat.
sch end at 12.35pm and had to prepare for the booth.
as usual, there will people that will be late.
I really dun understand why.
Sorry to keep the ma'am/sir waiting.
The cca fiesta was alright, manage to get 21 sec 1s.
after that home and then went to buy books, all out of stock
went to JD hse since i accidentally throw away my TxBk.
Oh..did someone say something?? but nvm..coz, HAHA
shall get the txbk tmr early morning. school tmr might be boring.
StillConsidering~~should i?~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hey! What is the Problem with you/you all?
If you/r not happy, tell me straight man.
I hate people beating around the bush.
If got anything, just clarify it.
I am more than happy to settle it.
come on la, don't act so immature can?

2010-01-02T00:38:00.004+08:00

hey ppl,
long time no post ler. Holidays ending soon.
First day of sch still got CCA. Homework also not done yet.
boring lah~~~ What I did during the holi was going out with friends,
attend training,pool,movie,bb,GET SCOLD BY CADETS...den nth much le...

Sometimes, i really don't understand why are there people like this?
people take kindness as weakness?
why don't you put yourself into other people shoe?
you think it is easy? if you think so? come and try it? Bloody Hell
seriously, i also don't know how to say already.
Wake up your bloody idea, WAKE UP !

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2009-10-26T00:07:00.001+08:00

nw is 12:07...bbut i cannt sleep....
sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian
hate this feeling....nth to do...sian...
tmr gt SS even more sian

2009-10-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

2009-10-20T22:37:00.004+08:00

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oh...haha..nth better to do.........................
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2009-10-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

TIRED DAY (-.-)

juz came back not long ago.....
like an idiot , chasing 4 ppl at buangkok....damn tired but fun
b4 tt, wen to bb court play awhile den cycle to the animal farm.
den go buangkok eat den start playing a lame game.....
going to play again next time with more ppl....
anw tmr getting bck papers leh....this yr very jialat lehz...
i scared later will separate class again den even less friend liao
nvm la....haiz....anw, nthing will lasts forever...so nvm bah...
oh.....tmr got cca...abit sianz...but no choice lehz......
ok ler, shall end here....buai.....

2009-10-17T22:00:00.003+08:00

WHY?! How come? What they say are true?..............
S.I.M.U.S.M
T.F.I.S.T.S ( I couldn't believe it )
H.I.W.I.A.T.T.U.N
H.I.W.I.C.T.U.H.M.I.L.U
H.I.W.U.R.B.M.S.N

2009-10-15T02:00:00.002+08:00

Exams Are Finally over!
wen to cp to have mos burger for breakfast+lunch=branch
den walk around lor...wen to kiddy palace and something was funny and stupid
den around noon, wen home...use comp den sleep den garner call me, ask me go for a ride...cycle to pasir ris park den cycle to Hougang mall....sit there chit chat and home-ed...
HAHA! garner ar garner.....u so suey today...tio scam by one old lady...
Tmr no sch so mayb going to Cycle again ...

I Dun Care Le.........

2009-10-14T00:31:00.002+08:00

Hey!
Tmr last paper le...YESH!!! this year so sucks! nvm.. juz nw wen to play bb den go cycle around...chit chat a while den home-ed...this few days not enough sleep...anw more events are coming up...gonna b buzy ler..

If the time could rewind back, I would told Myself to...............

2009-09-29T21:26:00.006+08:00

Hi
Today sku was fine except GEO/SS...Damn TMD boring.....
after sku, stay back for D&T until 6...tmr oso....tmr got Geo ace..
Anyone going out on sat?

As long as u r fine, i am Happy....
I will always be at ur side.....

2009-09-15T00:55:00.002+08:00

Helo

long time not post le worh
coz nth to post...
school was fine , better than staying at home
holi(?) alr over and EOY are coming.....
still dun understand some subject at all..
whenever it comes to humanities lesson,
i will sure fall asleep de,
dunno why lehz..so boring lor...

Adam khoo workshop is on 17&18 of sep...
abit excited but oso sian....need stay till so late
hope it is really useful....
this few days,
i like addicted to Sudden Attack(that y i nvr play for 3 days ler)

Is it possible that.......................

2009-08-08T00:23:00.002+08:00

yo ppl...long time no post
today wen to yio chu kang stadium
den parade;heard tt the parade is nt good...i think lack of rehearsal bah
den followed by games...our class get 2nd/3rd for most of it....
after tt homed ; sleep
tt all....hmk hmk hmk...sian la

2009-07-30T00:55:00.002+08:00

YOU GOT A PCB FACE
&
PCB ATTITUDE!!!
骗得了我和别人，骗不了你自己。

2009-07-18T23:38:00.002+08:00

HI people...i am BORED....sian la...at home everyday face the computer...damn boring de....doing my hmk tmr...tmr going out to get d&t stuff....haiz....life so boring....and the stupid h1n1...bcoz of it no cca!....1 ppl die bcoz of h1n1 today...he abit suay la....got other illness oso....

2009-07-02T21:47:00.003+08:00

Hey People long time no post...
school started....everyday early morning wake up den meet dion at koufu den go sku,talk talk talk....den funny thing happen....e.g ytd i was trying to shoot YZ but dunno y, mayb my aiming pajiao den shoot until chin hao>>>
chinhao :turn around and asked 'who shoot de?'
Mervin: 'it was me'
chinhao:'wahlao'
chinhao:turn back
chinhao:'ouch! very pain!'
LMAO....his reaction damn funny de...and today, mr teo damn funny first thing is moon walk den act like walking on the moon and he ask us a qn den he give us a clue 'LO_ _ _ _ _ _' den we guess untill he sian alr den someone shout at 'LOCATION' den he jump and say 'YES!'...lmao...
haiz i think his teaching improve le....today nvr split class den he say next week split class so i say 'can dun split class? if split class i go ur group..' den miss wong face turn black....haha...math changed teacher le..tt teacher like teaching pri sch children...haiz...sian lah...anw school is fun...ohya still gt few joker in class....ytd FT period is free time...so shiok...
today after sku jiu go home...

2009-06-23T00:50:00.012+08:00

Hi ppl... I think i quite long nvr post le...erm this few weeks went around hougang and sengkang....wen to play bb with dion, go fishing with dion,ws,garner,ryian and jordan....ws pro lah...catch lobster...den cycling around.....i bought a new bicycle coz someone lor...hahaz........
Today wen to ILUMA with dion,wj,jd,cc,lx,angel,jh,ht,sy,peilin,emily.....but me and dion nvr join them for the movie...went to had lunch with dion first den see gt promo den went in to eat den the bill only $14.36 den went to the arcade[tornado] and spent $10 there play the sweet machine...nw broke liao la....erm went cp den home around 5+pm...so i left lots of hmk to complete lehz....i only did some nia...will try to complete...anw wen/thurs/fri and maybe sat gt npcc den after tt mon sku re-open le...shall end here..................

a crack means a crack ,nth can heel it..dunno y everytime see you i will sian jipua lor...the feeling damn not good lah...hate tt feeling...

2009-06-10T20:52:00.003+08:00

went out today.....den wen home ard 6 bah...coz toking to ryian....haha..today was fine....nt buzy,nt boring...juz right....tmr mayb going play bb....i think tt all for today bah...nth much le

我已经看开了^.^ ....

2009-06-08T23:09:00.002+08:00

this few day is quite buzy going for course... anw i had went for the famine camp and get my 30hr cip...i nvr regret going..haha..fun is all i can say....damn tired de...buzy is better than free...anw i did nt touch on the hmk except for 2 drawings...haha..room quite messy....shall stop here le...

When Words Fail, Actions Speaks....When Action Fail, Eyes Speak....When eye Fail, Tears Speak...When Everything Else Fails....SILENCE Speaks....

2009-06-02T20:30:00.003+08:00

this few day damn fucking hot lor....cannot live without the aircon....stay at home so boring....so yeah tmr gt course=things to to=nt boring...haha...sian lah.....

looking back at photos inside my phone/computer....remind me of the past....<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< time fly, things change, everything not the same.....haiz forget it bah...anw time cannot be rewind...so accept the changes that have been made...and stop regretting.....it is easier to be said than done

2009-05-29T18:57:00.004+08:00

Not happy even though holiday le...it doesn't matter at all....
holidays=holiday assignment/course=need to do work=no holidays
npcc day today but whole parade sucks lah...i did nth lor...nvm...lesson gt few period is relief teacher come in de so chit chatting den play some real lame game tts all..
forget abt sch bah

You are talking crap la....knn...come on lah...you should know yourself best lor....u say i listen lor...i open 1 eye close 1 eye only....i really hate YOU....seriously it is hate....you say ppl do this do tt u oso the same mah...sometimes i feel like slaping u man...knnbpcb....'jump here jump there'...really hope i could write YOUR NAME down....u noe who u are lah...the rest u think i writing abt u, den u lor...

Saying nothing... sometimes says the most

2009-05-27T20:59:00.003+08:00

today was fine....nth much...after sku den wen home tt all...ytd wen for ICT course but i wen there late becoz of cca den i leave early for cca too...rather go for cca lor but the course is compulsory...

2009-05-25T23:56:00.004+08:00

Today i am freaking tired...the weather was oso freaking hot...stay inside aircon room still feel hot lor... dun wan to go sku actually....bt due to some reason, tt y i wen to sku...although i wen to sku bt my mind wasnt there...dun feel like studying at all....haiz...once again, i'm diappointed ....dun ask me why....it is for me to know for u to find out...LOL...
我累了。。我真的累了。。但是我还是继续地走。我不知道我几时才会停下来。
i like chao ta liddat ....roasted pig...haha...after going for the 1star kayaking...will be going for 2 star oso....there is a lame ICT course tmr..dun feel like going...bt will still go coz jus go there blow aircon[direct translate]...haha

I do understand...not to worry....it's ok...

2009-05-23T20:21:00.004+08:00

haiz...juz back nt long from kayaking...quite fun bt tiring...wad the hell lor nid too purposely capsize...the still need to do alot of things the can com out of the salty water...tmr still have....

haiz.. think someone misunderstood my previous post...haiz.. forget it bah....if you wan think this way i oso bo bian...any gt one no one oso the same to me....

2009-05-21T17:11:00.002+08:00

haiz...sku was boring..it was so warm lor...shall skipped>>>after sku wen home,bath,
change den wen to have a hair cut....so shiok..my hair is nw very short....later going prepare all npcc things ler...feel so tired nw....I dun noe wads going to happen next....

Now i understand/experience the meaning of
'A leopard doesn't change it's spots'
or
' 狗改不了吃屎'

lala

"difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lessonand then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you alesson"

Today really sucks! I think Now Cadets Will Hate Me Like Shit! But what I got to Say is 'TOO BAD'. Scolding wasn't fun AT ALL but no choice. But If anyone of you disagree with the sentence, try to scold ppl as and when u like and u will know what i mean. It TOTALLY spoil yours and mine mood.

"difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson
and then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a
lesson"